[so he should sing add love songs got it— that definitely won't earn him a black eye or nothin']

...huh? Why? He's great. He's been with us — the El Search Party, my friends back home — for years, and he's always stuck his neck out for us. Haha, we didn't get along at first... I thought he was nosey and I'm pretty sure he thought the same of me, but now most of our little arguments are lighthearted.

...

I think, anyway. I probably screwed that up, too.

[Now they are For Real arguing because Ain couldn't take a hint... sigh. If anyone hates themself it's Ain right this second.]

I guess I'm most sad because I've probably lost him as a friend, too...? Why would you want to talk to someone who has an obvious stupid little crush on you? Ugh. I definitely freaked him out more than I meant to, but I wasn't thinking.

[God, relationships are hard. He's distantly reminded of how Wolfwood rejected him at first too, but the circumstances were a lot worse because they were full-stop making out when Wolfwood hit him with the "not right now sorry :)". Then Ain didn't see him for two weeks... mmmmmm...

He smushes his face into his pillow and sighs. God he hates men.]